happy birthday to me.

So, I’m sitting here thinking about tomorrow. Well it’s midnight so I guess it’s the day. Today is my birthday. And I’ve always had mixed feelings about this day. I am excited and anxious for it to arrive and it always seems so long for some reason.  It’s the last day of the month. It’s not like it actually takes longer, of course, but its just how I’ve always thought of it. But the usual special attention and all that comes with this day is nice. It’s my day out of all the other days in the year, that is mine, except for the fact of sharing it with my birthday buddies, Tyler and Sarah. (Happy Birthday Guys!!!) But I’ve always been sort of annoyed but my birthday. I feel like I never really feel my age and that this number that increases every year, is going far to fast. I may be 28, but honestly I don’t feel as though I should be more than 20. I feel when someone finds out my age that it should come with a disclaimer or something. I may be 28 but I don’t feel that old, or I don’t look that old.. I don’t know. But this year as I’m thinking about it all. I vow to not be annoyed by a number. There is a quote out there about, growing old and enjoying it because it’s a luxury that not everyone is afforded. It’s so true. I was Given these 28 years and there are people out there are hoping for one more year, or one more month, one more day. There are soldiers and families that would give anything for more time. People like Sgt. Kyle Osborne died, so that I could could have these 28 years and if God willing, I get one more.  Everyday is a gift from God and so many of us need to be reminded of that.  This next year is going to be my best year yet. I am going to live it to it’s fullest and live it for those who weren’t so lucky to see their 28th year. I know it’s an overused phrase these days, but I am going to LIVE, LOVE, LAUGH.  I’m going to experience all there is to experience, especially in our new state, Alaska. I am going to explore, and seize every day. I am going to love those around me. I am going to give every ounce of love I have away, to my amazing husband, my kids, my parents, the rest of my family, friends and everyone else I meet along the way. And I am going to laugh and enjoy the little things. I’m going to smile. I’m not going to take life too serious, and I plan to find the positive in every situation. Life is FUN, and I’m going to enjoy every second of it.  Carpe Diem.